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Love is like a drug

Well, love is like a drug... You are happy and you are addicted to it when everything is all good. But when it is not, it is slowly killing you from the inside. You try to do everything you can to get the memories. Anything to get that adrenaline, that aesthetic feeling back.

But you can't. So, what do you do? Well, for most, people would do actual drugs or weed and drown themselves in alcohol. Anything to drown the pain. Anything to forget. And most of the time, wish that you never have to wake up to face another day of the excruciating pain. 

I remembered that pain. I remembered how much I wished I didn't have to wake up. I remembered putting a mask for everyone to see. Nobody saw through me. Nobody saw how I was dying inside. 

This song reminded me of that pain. The worst feeling ever. Sometimes I wished I was dead. I slept at 4-5am in the morning with tears in my eyes, wakes up at 3-4pm (wishing I could die in my sleep) and goes out late til the sun comes up. This repeated for a couple of months. This was the time I totally stopped blogging because of that numb, hollowness inside of me. This was the time I couldn't feel anything. I WANTED TO STAY HIGH ALL THE TIME, to escape the nothingness of reality!

It was when a friend who came back from London and what he said really gave me a smack on my face. I picked myself up and I am where I am now.

In conclusion, when a relationship is over and you'd feel like the world is falling down on you, when you feel like just giving up, just stay strong for a little while more. 

Because that friend said, "If you ever find yourself going lower and lower, and you can't get back up, that's just because you are not at your lowest YET. When you are at your lowest, the only way to go is UP!".

On another note, I prefer this beautiful version of "Stay High" from Chrissy which is more upbeat and brings a more positive vibe. Like the kind of feeling, which is high from being in love and missing the kareshi when he was away on his "bro trip" to Ho Chi Minh City.

Beautiful and talented Chrissy Constanza!

Singapore: An Elephant's Big Day!

A couple of weeks ago, the kareshi and I flew to Singapore on a one-day trip for a very special elephant's birthday.

We had to wake up super early to catch our super early flight to Singapore. I barely had any sleep and the damned alarm clock rang at 4:30a.m. while I rushed to get prepared. 

The elephant had no idea we were coming over as we made all the arrangements with his awesomesauce girlfriend, Nelle. Exciting day!!!

When we reach the airport, Nelle was already at the arrival hall waiting for us. She brought us breakfast (eggs and toast) while making further arrangements and making sure that the elephant did not oversleep.

After our brief breakfast, we went to her cousin's japanese restaurant where we camped for like an hour plus. I believe the kareshi and I have what it takes to be a sniper.

The view from our position where we were camping while retaining cover. Nelle had to meet the elephant elsewhere so that we do not blow our cover.

The kareshi under cover. 使徒行者.

I swear we waited for almost a year as I felt many seasons had passed but Nelle and the elephant was still no where to be seen. I slept and slept and slept... Oh! Still not here! Gawddammit! Ah! My back hurts from all the crawling hiding.

Finally! After several decades! We can eat! And no more camping in static position!

But first! Lemme take a selfie....

The elephant and his beautiful girlfriend... Also, her cute cousin...

Mimimimimi... Mimi sexy sashimi-mi... Mememememe... Meme... Sexy Andy...

After that, we went back to their crib next to Katong and settle down... While the kareshi and his mistress elephant makes out, I practically fainted on the nearest available bed before tonight's dinner.


 Such a beautiful scenery... Quiet... 
It is so relaxing... I wished we didn't have to rush so much... :(
Nelle and the elephant brought us to this awesomesauce place which I did not know existed unless it was heaven and it's called "Hai Di Lao" ( 海底捞火锅 )  which was in Somerset.

Here's a link on 10 reasons why you should go to this place when you visit Singapore! And I am seriously not exaggerating this time...

The soup was super thick and flavourful. When you dip your fatty pork meat into it... 
OH-MY-GAWD!!! It tastes like magical rainbow-ish unicorn poop. Which is a good thing. I wish unicorn poop comes in a can. Mythical burst of flavour in a can!

 Here's the grumpy looking birthday boy elephant who looked like he didn't get what he wished for Christmas. Mouth Shut Smiley

But nothing puts a smile on the elephant's face like a mistress goat sitting on the elephant's lap...
Elephant: Come sit on my lap! MuahMuah! 
Goat: "No Thanks"

 Although it was quite a rush, it was an enjoyable weekend. Good food, great company and wonderful friendship. What more could I ask for? The simplest things in life are often the most fulfiling. Love It Smiley

 Bye bye, Singapore! See you soon!

 Lastly, here's a picture of the most beautiful cat, Mochi Mirana, the Priestess of the Moon!

It is cute! But it would hide under the table and strike you out of the blue moon! 

 *Actually it belongs to the owner of the place we stayed in Singapore... She's so cute! I adore her! :D


One Year. Ichinen.

It's been one year since the kareshi professed his undying love for me. Haha. Everytime I think about it, it makes me laugh. I don't know why, but what started out as a friendship actually grew into something else.

Flowers which the kareshi gave when he professed a year ago. Dried them up and kept them.

I have known the kareshi for 4-5 years before he was my significant other. It is really creepy how he could know me so well. Like, he would know when I am tired or when I am craving for something. And what made me love him more each day is how much he loves me.

He will never get angry or raise his voice at me. No matter what I did wrong, he will always say, it's ok, it's alright, don't worry about it. He always tells me how unbelievable it is that someone like me would accept him. Well, it is unbelievable how someone could ever love me this much.

Well.. for our 1 year anniversary, the kareshi pre-booked a place at Acme Bar & Coffee in Troika, KL for our Sunday lunch. That was our pre-anniversary celebration.


Bacon & Snail... Acme's Breakfast...

The kareshi's face...

On the actual date of our anniversary, he brought me to Leonardo's in Bangsar... It was so freaking dark inside I can hardly see where I am going... So I didn't manage to take the picture of our super yummy food.
Leonardo's menu... 

Leonardo's theme is "Pork" but it is rather peculiar that they serve Pork Chop, Fettucinne Carbonara AND ALSO, BAK KUT TEH. Like seriously... And we saw a customer actually ordering their bak kut teh.

A special suprise which he picked on his own. 

I love you Guo Guo! ^^
Happy One Year!!